How Does Everyone Live This Way?

And by 'live this way' I mean deal with human emotions all the time. Is there a way I can go back to being repressed? -sulks- This goes beyond the anger I have felt. I literally hate my husband. I wish he was dead. It's slowly sinking in that he deliberately tormented me with sleep … Continue reading How Does Everyone Live This Way?


I'm really not doing too badly all things considered. Monday's anxiety was really high and I wasn't very productive, but I feel less than productive most days. I keep telling myself I'm doing amazing for someone that's been going on 3-5 hours of sleep a night as long as I have, let alone all the … Continue reading Coasting

Anxiety, the Plague of My Existence

I've definitely made some headway with anxiety in the last year. Huge progress. But I'm still caught in that vicious loop of sleep deprivation worsening anxiety which in turn causes sleep deprivation. I really fucking hate anxiety. It's definitely been spiking again since my husband informed me that he filed. I mean, how could it … Continue reading Anxiety, the Plague of My Existence