Revisiting My Goals

I wrote a list on July 12th, 2019 and published it on this blog the following day. Priorities:Sleep (regular, long enough, restful)Environment (uncluttered and clean enough)Social life (hobbies I enjoy where I can meet people and hopefully make friends, plus meeting people I know face-to-face)Employment (wardrobe, make-up, managing anxiety, training/certification, pays enough)Exploration (getting out of … Continue reading Revisiting My Goals →

All Real Numbers

My therapist and I were talking about choice and what I want again today. He sounded less sure that I should go ahead and tell H about my feelings. He mentioned the dreaded word 'rebound' which I admit makes me feel very defensive. Talked about how we don't give ourselves time to develop friendships but … Continue reading All Real Numbers →

Subsiding

I suppose it's too early to be declaring my new approach to emotional states a confirmed success, but I have to say results are more promising than I expected. This past week I gave myself permission to feel good and think of positive outcomes. Played music ranging from mellow and pleasant to cheerful and exciting. … Continue reading Subsiding →

Learning to Hope

Thursday I went to see my therapist. I knew he wanted to talk about the nightmare that had caused me so many issues over the beginning of the week - I think he also wanted to see if I had reason to believe I was in any real danger from my husband. Any time people … Continue reading Learning to Hope →