Bits and Pieces, 5-22-2020

This format worked fairly well last time so I may stick with this going forward during this period where I don't get the energy to post daily. First off - ten years from now when my youngest is 18 and presumably interested in becoming an independent adult that does not spend all her time with … Continue reading Bits and Pieces, 5-22-2020 →

Bits and Pieces

I was so devastated at the idea of working retail. I sucked it up and applied for a job and I ended up working at a grocery store in a pandemic. That sounds pretty terrible on the surface of things. So it's a little surreal that when I'm at work I'm the most at peace … Continue reading Bits and Pieces →

Spotty

My desire to write ends up MIA a lot these days, which is sad because I'd like to keep up with what's going on a little more consistently. My ability to focus on reading has also been MIA a lot. That means my presence around here is spotty at best. Anyway, I had an encounter … Continue reading Spotty →

Brief Update

Have not been great about updating. The days when I don't work I'm trapped here in quarantine with my ex and even though he's more or less behaving himself, it's stressful and draining. Just wrapped up my 3rd of 4 shifts this week and the physicality of the job is finally getting to me. Have … Continue reading Brief Update →

Creepy

I headed out for a second walk yesterday - out into a wet and ominously clouded night, and as I was crossing an intersection heading to the nearby nature area and the paved trail that runs through it, I had a thought. I've been in my suburb of some 70,000 people for 8 months now... … Continue reading Creepy →

Sacrifice, Restoration and Awkward Timing

I entered my marriage with a fantastic metabolism. I could eat anything in any amount and stayed right around 120-125lbs. By my 3rd pregnancy, my metabolism was giving up. After my 4th pregnancy, I'd gone from a size 6 to a size 12 and was around 175lbs. I felt a little guilty for caring about … Continue reading Sacrifice, Restoration and Awkward Timing →

I’m Okay

I'm not great, I'm not terrible. After a very rough start to the quarantine and social distancing, I've settled into an equilibrium of sorts. I'm not at my best - I managed to have a pretty good few weeks from February to mid-March. The anxiety and depression were very low, happiness was up. I'm definitely … Continue reading I’m Okay →

This Is Quite A Timeline

I don't get political on this blog very often. Just a warning, I'm on the left and have nothing good to say about the current administration. I'm an LGBT+ person in a female body that grew up on the Christian right. The Christian right and their teachings combined with my parents' early brainwashing techniques conditioned … Continue reading This Is Quite A Timeline →

Good News

So, the start of the morning was less-than-stellar when my husband showed up to work from home. Apparently his company is allowing people to voluntarily work from home while they decide if they need to shut down the office due to COVID-19 showing up in our state. While I was still digesting and internally freaking … Continue reading Good News →

Wish Me Luck

Yesterday I had my interview with the store I applied to. It was around 60 outside, and breezy, so we sat on the table outside the store. I hate certain aspects of interviews, in particular things like 'tell us about a time when you did X.' Those aren't the memories I tend to hang on … Continue reading Wish Me Luck →