I managed to exert myself in spite of my desire to wallow in self-pity and left a voice mail for the next likeliest therapist among the ones I'd bookmarked. He also practices in downtown Indy, within walking distance of the Central Library still, which to be honest would be a perk. More importantly, though, he … Continue reading Looking Again
It seems I'm looking for a new therapist. Less than an hour before my appointment, while already on the road (I like to leave early), I received a text that the therapist I'd been attempting to get established with was sick, again, and had to cancel, again. He gave me the name of another therapist … Continue reading A Little Discouraging
Today my husband called on his break. He hasn't been doing that lately. Not since I made up my mind divorce was 100% happening and that we could no longer even continue our trying to be friends-with-benefits arrangement. He said he'd been thinking about something we discussed yesterday - how I'd said I couldn't trust … Continue reading Paranoia
I really do want to be staying current on what's happening in my life, as I find it useful to be able to look back and see what I recorded, but apparently that's just not something I'm staying on top of right now. I had an issue develop with my shoulder, I believe I mentioned, … Continue reading Behind On Updating
Yesterday marked 3 months since my husband and I relocated to Indiana and began our last year together. 3 months of the 12 months I have to achieve independence, gone. That was a little frightening, and disheartening. I had to remind myself that I'm not being lazy. Living life requires an intense amount of effort … Continue reading Progress Report
I was complaining to A and H about not wanting to muck my shoulder up further and delay healing, but going stir crazy being stuck in the house so much, and H suggested I try a sling from a drug store. That was an excellent suggestion, so yesterday afternoon I walked to a nearby CVS … Continue reading Fall Foliage, Etc.
I have been having a slightly harder time lately. Skirting the edge of depression. I can tell because it's harder for me to focus on things I'd normally be prioritizing, like writing on my blog, reading the blogs I follow, taking pictures while out walking, etc. I'm still more or less okay, though. Keeping my … Continue reading Various and Sundry Items
I've been browsing through my older blog entries today. It's hard to believe it's only been about 6 months. I feel like I've lived several lifetimes in that 6 months. I've confirmed my husband was acting weird and insecure and paranoid before I developed feelings for someone else, and before I was honest with him … Continue reading A Look Back
I still feel pretty positive that my intuition is on the right track and that at some point, my husband stepped out on me and subsequently kept it a secret. I had no idea how to feel about that. My body physically reacted with a ton of anxiety. My guts spilled their guts, so to … Continue reading How Do I Feel?
I think I may have stumbled on the answer to a mystery. I've been so mystified by my husband's behavior. The only explanation I could see being that he was having some kind mental health issue due to stress. Until today. I was visiting M (Indy), and we were talking about a mutual acquaintance. Mutual … Continue reading Possible and Plausible