I've tried private journaling at various times in my life and have never been successful. It's not enough to write my thoughts down - I want to cast them out into the universe where they have a chance of being seen. It's a strange bit of ego but I imagine without the desire to share … Continue reading Public Journaling
Witchcraft
So, I saw this still from an episode of the Simpsons yesterday and it had me ruminating about the fact that I call myself a witch. I guess I do - and have for a long time - seen myself as confident and powerful. Recognizing that I had been a victim of domestic abuse and … Continue reading Witchcraft
Recovery
Thursday something occurred that felt nearly miraculous. My therapist expressed his opinion that I was doing so well that all I might need at this point would be the occasional session to check in and make sure everything was still okay. It's a little less than 2 years since I embarked on a journey to … Continue reading Recovery
I’m Not Dead Yet But I Don’t Think I’ll Take A Walk, Yet
Well, life changed in a big way. I got employment. I got my own apartment. I forced my ex to agree to 50/50 custody for the summer. My mental health improved significantly. I started dabbling with dating. My writing habit got derailed. We were supposed to have a final hearing for the divorce in September. … Continue reading I’m Not Dead Yet But I Don’t Think I’ll Take A Walk, Yet
High Anxiety
I haven't been around much. As my life and mood improved I found I needed writing as an outlet less and less. Plus, my laptop is behaving badly and typing this out on a phone is a massive pain. Going through a high anxiety day today and having to remind myself how many good days … Continue reading High Anxiety
Solid Ground
In 2015, easily one of the worst (if not the worst) years I had for depression and mental health issues, I felt like I was alone in the ocean, at night, with no idea which way to swim in order to reach land - just trying to float and wondering if I would go under. … Continue reading Solid Ground
Big Changes, Part 4
The weekend passed pretty quietly. My ex, of course, was demanding to know where the kids were, demanding I bring them back, demanding I have them call him - the kids actually didn't want to call and speak with him, though. So I told them that I would text him that they'd call him tomorrow … Continue reading Big Changes, Part 4
Big Changes, Part 3
We - the four of us helping and me - got in our vehicles and drove to my new place. It didn't take long to unload, and then we stood outside my new apartment while one of my coworkers had a smoke. My other coworker told me he was going to use some of his … Continue reading Big Changes, Part 3
Big Changes, Part 2
My ex seemed to accept what I said about moving at the end of June. I suspected he was thinking "roommate" in quotation marks and honestly, he was probably so busy thinking about that it never occurred to him that I might be up to anything else. The people that would be able to help … Continue reading Big Changes, Part 2
Big Changes
I stopped posting for a bit due to a combination of lack of energy and not wanting to talk about what was happening out of an excess of paranoia that my ex might have found my blog and that I'd tip him off. After the failed mediation, my attorneys advised me to get housing as … Continue reading Big Changes
Bits and Pieces, 5-22-2020
This format worked fairly well last time so I may stick with this going forward during this period where I don't get the energy to post daily. First off - ten years from now when my youngest is 18 and presumably interested in becoming an independent adult that does not spend all her time with … Continue reading Bits and Pieces, 5-22-2020
On A Good Day 