I've tried private journaling at various times in my life and have never been successful. It's not enough to write my thoughts down - I want to cast them out into the universe where they have a chance of being seen. It's a strange bit of ego but I imagine without the desire to share … Continue reading Public Journaling
Monday was MLK Day. The kids had the day off school. My husband was home as well. I couldn't make phone calls while they were there but I knew my husband had planned another trip for laser tag. Once they'd left the apartment I started calling to price the services of local lawyers. It was … Continue reading Emotional Shock, Part 2
This is a follow up to Growth and Interesting Times, Part 3. I couldn't do much on Sunday. Having realized that I was still in a better place now than I was 5 years ago I felt calmer, though. The courts were closed on Monday but I would probably be able to call local lawyers … Continue reading Emotional Shock, Part 1
Content note: suicidal ideation Friday was the start of a frigid winter weekend, and as the stress and trauma of the day had grown, my brain had started whispering to me that freezing to death seemed like a pretty mild way to go. Either you went to sleep or you went crazy, but either way … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 3
When I'd been discussing my husband's latest salvo with A & H, I'd said I didn't intend to move out of my tiny bedroom. If my husband wanted me out, he'd have to physically remove my stuff. The kids would surely be curious and confused and he'd have to come up with an explanation for … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 2
I was going to sleep the night of the 15th when I remembered my habit calendar. I'd downloaded it at the beginning of December because I wanted to be able to mark off the days until the 30th. I'd decided to keep it going in January but had fallen behind. As I marked off a … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 1
Things have been intense and it's getting in the way of me finishing the updates I set out to write. I'm still here, still dealing with life and still moving forward to the best of my ability. As soon as I get the energy and focus to finish an entry, I'll be publishing an update.
Friday I went to see M (Indy). She's having a tough January - she got laid off after a merger, and she's been dealing with stress from her family. After I arrived she said her husband had contacted her and needed his second pair of work boots, due to having discovered a hole in the … Continue reading The Upper Hand