Witchcraft

So, I saw this still from an episode of the Simpsons yesterday and it had me ruminating about the fact that I call myself a witch. I guess I do - and have for a long time - seen myself as confident and powerful. Recognizing that I had been a victim of domestic abuse and … Continue reading Witchcraft →

Recovery

Thursday something occurred that felt nearly miraculous. My therapist expressed his opinion that I was doing so well that all I might need at this point would be the occasional session to check in and make sure everything was still okay. It's a little less than 2 years since I embarked on a journey to … Continue reading Recovery →

I’m Not Dead Yet But I Don’t Think I’ll Take A Walk, Yet

Well, life changed in a big way. I got employment. I got my own apartment. I forced my ex to agree to 50/50 custody for the summer. My mental health improved significantly. I started dabbling with dating. My writing habit got derailed. We were supposed to have a final hearing for the divorce in September. … Continue reading I’m Not Dead Yet But I Don’t Think I’ll Take A Walk, Yet →

Big Changes, Part 4

The weekend passed pretty quietly. My ex, of course, was demanding to know where the kids were, demanding I bring them back, demanding I have them call him - the kids actually didn't want to call and speak with him, though. So I told them that I would text him that they'd call him tomorrow … Continue reading Big Changes, Part 4 →

Big Changes, Part 3

We - the four of us helping and me - got in our vehicles and drove to my new place. It didn't take long to unload, and then we stood outside my new apartment while one of my coworkers had a smoke. My other coworker told me he was going to use some of his … Continue reading Big Changes, Part 3 →

Big Changes, Part 2

My ex seemed to accept what I said about moving at the end of June. I suspected he was thinking "roommate" in quotation marks and honestly, he was probably so busy thinking about that it never occurred to him that I might be up to anything else. The people that would be able to help … Continue reading Big Changes, Part 2 →

Big Changes

I stopped posting for a bit due to a combination of lack of energy and not wanting to talk about what was happening out of an excess of paranoia that my ex might have found my blog and that I'd tip him off. After the failed mediation, my attorneys advised me to get housing as … Continue reading Big Changes →

Instability

This morning my ex informed me maintenance would be coming over. After they arrived, he showed up at the door to my "bedroom" (aka the walk-in closet in my boys' bedroom) and asked if I knew where the screw was from the towel bar that had fallen off the wall. I looked confused and shrugged … Continue reading Instability →

So Many Feelings

H introduced me to something called synthesia / black MIDIs which is basically music that builds up into cramming as many notes as possible before sanity or the computer breaks down. H likes it - I think I'd have to be very heavily caffeinated and high on life before I could actually enjoy it as … Continue reading So Many Feelings →

Mediation

I left the house a few minutes early, moved my car so it wasn't right next to our building and joined the Zoom meeting. The paralegal standing in for my lawyer explained that my lawyer was on a hearing at the moment and would join in a bit. What she expected to take her 30 … Continue reading Mediation →