Required mediation takes place tomorrow via Zoom. The lawyer originally handling my case left the firm for another job and now the paralegal and remaining lawyer are having to handle the extra caseload while knowing nothing much about my situation. There's even a schedule conflict that will mean the paralegal, rather than the lawyer, is … Continue reading Dread
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Brief Update
Have not been great about updating. The days when I don't work I'm trapped here in quarantine with my ex and even though he's more or less behaving himself, it's stressful and draining. Just wrapped up my 3rd of 4 shifts this week and the physicality of the job is finally getting to me. Have … Continue reading Brief Update
An Unwanted Visit
I have another 4 days off in a row. This will be followed by 4 days working. I'd rather the shifts were spread out a little more, though, as even just a 4 day stretch trapped in quarantine with my ex is mildly insanity inducing at best. Last night I was consoling myself that at … Continue reading An Unwanted Visit
It's Difficult To Write Right Now
I feel like I'm rather wasting an opportunity to be recording a major event in world history but I just can't seem to summon up the words most days. Yesterday Indy M messaged me asking if I'd keep her company while they moved. They would have fewer than 10 people to stay within the guidelines … Continue reading It's Difficult To Write Right Now
Good News
So, the start of the morning was less-than-stellar when my husband showed up to work from home. Apparently his company is allowing people to voluntarily work from home while they decide if they need to shut down the office due to COVID-19 showing up in our state. While I was still digesting and internally freaking … Continue reading Good News
Until Use And Old Age Accept Them
I looked for the source of my fear and I found it. I determined I'd let the fear go. My brain promptly said "bitch, that anxiety was there for a reason - did you think I was being irrational? I didn't want you thinking about things that make you want to kill yourself." Domestic life … Continue reading Until Use And Old Age Accept Them
Irrationally Clingy
I heard from my attorney yesterday and she mentioned that my husband is justifying withholding funds from me to his attorney by claiming things like that I'm not going to the kids' counseling sessions and that instead I was driving around wasting gas. First, I was at a one day assignment for a staffing agency. … Continue reading Irrationally Clingy
How Does Everyone Live This Way?
And by 'live this way' I mean deal with human emotions all the time. Is there a way I can go back to being repressed? -sulks- This goes beyond the anger I have felt. I literally hate my husband. I wish he was dead. It's slowly sinking in that he deliberately tormented me with sleep … Continue reading How Does Everyone Live This Way?
The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly
So, the ugly - I have oral thrush. -.- Something was wrong with my tongue and when I googled it the most likely culprit was oral thrush. Gross. Went to urgent care Friday morning and they confirmed my suspicion and set me up with a 10 day prescription and I hope to god it works, … Continue reading The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly
Choices
Tuesday I met with what would hopefully become my newly retained law firm. I was so nervous by the time I got there that I joked in the group chat with A & H that hopefully they wouldn't be too put out if I collapsed on their floor and became catatonic. The meeting didn't raise … Continue reading Choices
On A Good Day 