Mini-monopolies are still monopolies. Anyway, 5 years ago we moved from Florida (Brighthouse NEVER fucked up this badly in our years of service through them) to Illinois and had to go with Comcast. We burned 2 hours worth of time on a pay-per-minute phone because our service wasn't working and every rep my husband talked … Continue reading Comcast Sucks
Dysfunctional Family (But Not Mine This Time)
So, last Wednesday my husband and I had another define-the-relationship discussion. The denial was wearing off, and he was realizing that when I said I saw the most likely outcome of this year being that we'd formally part ways at the end of it, that was what I really meant. That there are flaws in … Continue reading Dysfunctional Family (But Not Mine This Time)
Relocation Achieved
Well, the relationship between my husband and I did not devolve to the point we couldn't live under the same roof together, so I've reached my first goal, which was to get to Indiana without having relapsed into a major depression, first. The movers commented on how we had more boxes than furniture. This is … Continue reading Relocation Achieved
Run Away, Run Away!
(In which I discuss my fear of the not-so-distant future and then tangent into hope for the more distant future.) Oh god this is really happening. My year in which I need to become independent and able to support myself begins tomorrow. For months now I've been telling myself just to focus on keeping depression … Continue reading Run Away, Run Away!
More Assorted Bits And Pieces
I woke up this morning and found that Comcast had canceled our internet service at our current residence even though they weren't supposed to do that until the 21st. We've never had a good experience with Comcast and have only used them because they are the only option here. My husband had to spend an … Continue reading More Assorted Bits And Pieces
An Assortment of Things
It amuses me when I get a like and it's pretty clear they can't possibly have read the post and are just hoping to generate return traffic. No, when talking about my impending divorce I do not, in fact, want to visit your wedding blog. --- I scrubbed a lot of things yesterday and today … Continue reading An Assortment of Things
Fundamentally Flawed
(In which I explain myself to judgmental critics that may or may not exist in reality but definitely exist in my own head.) Think of one of your friends that you quite like, but that you have no romantic feelings for, and that you are not sexually attracted to. Now imagine you marry that friend. … Continue reading Fundamentally Flawed
Sulking
Been trying to sleep for over an hour now. Instead of getting sleepy, I'm dealing with intense loneliness. I think my internal landscape is getting altered so much, so quickly, that I don't feel like myself. I've spent most of my married life feeling touched out and wishing my children and husband would touch me … Continue reading Sulking
Fluctuation
Anxiety and depression are a vicious circle. I woke up this morning feeling sad, and I can't wake up feeling sad without my brain immediately spiraling out into anxiety as well. Is this the beginning of the end? Does waking up sad this morning signal that I'll wake up sad the next 700 mornings too? … Continue reading Fluctuation
On the Subject of Doubt
Yesterday A, M and I had a conversation about faith and religion. (J's phone has been screwing up and refusing to connect to her wi-fi when she's at home, so she wasn't present for it). All 4 of us have been severely damaged by religious indoctrination. All 4 of us have had at least one … Continue reading On the Subject of Doubt
On A Good Day 