I still feel pretty positive that my intuition is on the right track and that at some point, my husband stepped out on me and subsequently kept it a secret. I had no idea how to feel about that. My body physically reacted with a ton of anxiety. My guts spilled their guts, so to … Continue reading How Do I Feel?
Category: Relationship
Possible and Plausible
I think I may have stumbled on the answer to a mystery. I've been so mystified by my husband's behavior. The only explanation I could see being that he was having some kind mental health issue due to stress. Until today. I was visiting M (Indy), and we were talking about a mutual acquaintance. Mutual … Continue reading Possible and Plausible
Wednesday and Thursday
Wednesday was okay. Better than Tuesday had been. About an hour more for sleep, still felt kind of anxious and sad when I woke up, but managed to knock that out with my walk. Spent my time in a similar fashion - came home, showered, ate, and then went to two more Goodwills to continue … Continue reading Wednesday and Thursday
MST3K, and Music
When I was in Tennessee, my husband had messaged me and said he wanted to get tickets to MST3K's live tour, as they'd be in the Indy area in October, and if he did, would I go with him? I was leery of the idea but said yes. MST3K has been a part of my … Continue reading MST3K, and Music
Processing
I'll admit I felt pretty good this morning about having stood up to my husband yesterday. Telling him no, telling him I had a legal right to live in an apartment with my name on the lease, and that if he wanted me out he could get a court order - but he'd have to … Continue reading Processing
Update: Interpersonal “Fun”
I went to my first meet-up today. When I got home I found that my husband was in a very bad mood. I'll admit, I'm not innocent on that one. I was so upset with how he'd acted yesterday that I told him where I was going, when, for what, and sent him a selfie … Continue reading Update: Interpersonal “Fun”
No Good Deed Goes Unpunished
I'm finding it grimly amusing that trying to convince my husband to see a therapist seems to be backfiring on all fronts. I genuinely wanted him to get help and healing and learn how to move forward with his life in healthy ways, but I'm reminded that no therapist can help someone that doesn't think … Continue reading No Good Deed Goes Unpunished
Interpersonal “Fun”
So, Thursday afternoon I was dreading Friday, because Friday was when my husband and I were going to have our end of the month check-in, and I was going to have to bring up finances. I decided I'd try and do something positive that would give me something to look forward to later, as that … Continue reading Interpersonal “Fun”
When It’s Not Abuse Or Infidelity
I've been thinking about my relationship. How people understand and accept the dissolution of a relationship for reasons of abuse and infidelity - you really don't have to offer much in the way of explanation or detail if either of those reasons are the reason for it ending. If neither of those are the reason, … Continue reading When It’s Not Abuse Or Infidelity
Goals Delayed Again
I'd mentioned only a couple of posts ago, I think, how it felt like I was putting so much effort into holding ground but end up feeling like I'm never able to advance. I was told that if I hadn't heard from the career center about next week's Excel course by 3pm today to call. … Continue reading Goals Delayed Again
On A Good Day 