Sorry, I mentioned I'd be writing further about online tests and I'm delivering on that promise. So among the personality tests I was playing around with, there were other tests involving attitudes, social norms, gender and sexuality, etc. (Be prepared for some lingo associated with the LGBT community and those on the left. Because I … Continue reading Sexual Attitudes, Kinsey, Orientation, Gender
Emotion And Logic Are Not Enemies / Opposites
I got lost down a rabbit hole of personality tests thanks to having visited the INTP subreddit (thanks to a mention of said forum by fellow blogger Blunt Japanese Woman). I understand said tests are an imperfect and often unscientific way of categorizing people, but I also find that I can learn things about myself, … Continue reading Emotion And Logic Are Not Enemies / Opposites
Living With Tension
I may be seeing progress on building emotional boundaries between myself and my husband. In spite of the fact that he's clearly been having a rough time, he did arrange for a visit with a new therapist, and went on Saturday morning, and we have not yet fallen into another lengthy and exhausting conversation in … Continue reading Living With Tension
Trying To Be A Functional Adult Again
Simply pulling up Starbucks' website to take a look at their application process, and pulling up my resume with an eye to update it, spiked my anxiety higher than it's been since before I moved, leaving me feeling physically ill. I suppose the silver lining is that I'm no longer constipated!* I sat there looking … Continue reading Trying To Be A Functional Adult Again
Grumpy Ennui
I realized yesterday that I have some mental hangups about leaving the house and doing things, even though I now have a car and free time, still. So this morning I decided I'd head to a reservoir with a swimming beach, but when I pulled up the information it turned out they'd altered their hours … Continue reading Grumpy Ennui
Clear Water
One of my very favorite things in the world is clear water. Streams, creeks, rivers, springs and lakes in particular. I couldn't tell you why that became such a draw for me, but it's been that way since my early memories of the creek behind the old farmhouse where we lived, and the lake my … Continue reading Clear Water
Fortifying
I could feel that I was slipping, this morning, feeling the clutch of depression and anxiety. It did not help that the weather outside is overcast and dreary. Fortunately I had a therapy appointment scheduled for 11am, and I forced myself to get out the door for a walk before my appointment. There were a … Continue reading Fortifying
Thanks, I Hate It
I think I've been very lonely for a very long time now, and couldn't look that loneliness in the face and acknowledge it for what it is. I had the realization yesterday that my unfocused, existential boredom that couldn't be assuaged was really a desire to be around congenial company in person. Growing up homeschooled … Continue reading Thanks, I Hate It
A Rant About Boredom And Love
I'm just unfocused and bored enough that I can't focus on ways to alleviate the boredom. I'm at the level of existential boredom where I finally joined reddit last night, spent the evening browsing and occasionally commenting on things, and am now already bored with reddit. So now I'm here, hoping writing on my blog … Continue reading A Rant About Boredom And Love
Failed Relaxation
Set out for a walk just after 9pm hoping it would help me relax before bed and about ten minutes in, the following occurs: Brain, anxiously: "What if a serial killer grabs us from behind and starts strangling us?" Stress response system: "Adrenalize! FIGHT MODE ENGAGED!" Me, definitely not relaxing now: ... Brain, cynically: "You … Continue reading Failed Relaxation
On A Good Day 