I'm not going to subject you to the hundred or so photos I took at the Garfield Park Conservatory this morning, but here's a selection of my favorites.
Rainy Day Escape
My husband is working from home Mondays and Fridays now, and with our current issues a four day stretch is a little much for me, so I decided I'd find something to do outside the house today. As it was going to be raining all day, it needed to be indoors, but my initial selection … Continue reading Rainy Day Escape
I’m Gonna Have To Add Barbwire To These Boundaries
Last night I made sure my husband knew any TV watching beyond 10pm had to be moved to the living room. He wrapped up a few minutes after 10 and sent the boys to bed, and I settled down to listen to music and hopefully sleep. He came over and affectionately squeezed my arm and … Continue reading I’m Gonna Have To Add Barbwire To These Boundaries
Small Things
I went out for a walk this morning, still sleep deprived, in a state of disassociation and fight or flight at the same time, which would have been more interesting to experience if I'd had more focus. I walked to the spot where the railroad crosses the creek and sat and watched the water and … Continue reading Small Things
I Am Not Going To Blow Up My Life, I Am Not Going To Blow Up My Life…
At the moment I'm having to remind myself of just how badly I could screw myself over if I tell my husband I'm now 100% certain I want a divorce and want to file as soon as legally allowed - 5 months from now. I know part of this is the sleep deprivation talking. We … Continue reading I Am Not Going To Blow Up My Life, I Am Not Going To Blow Up My Life…
Fiction Sample
I've been just a little obsessed with vampires since I was 9-10 and had a nightmare that woke me in terror and sent me running to my parents' room for comfort, something that almost never happened because of a dream. I loved reading vampire novels, watching vampire movies, and the occasional vampire TV show, like … Continue reading Fiction Sample
8/24/19
It's only 2pm but it feels like an entire day has passed. We took the kids to see a new therapist, as we were extremely uncomfortable that we could hear another client's session through the walls at the last office. (I was also uncomfortable with the fact that the last therapist had questioned our impending … Continue reading 8/24/19
Breezing Through The Day
As has been the pattern, I had trouble staying asleep last night, and when I finally checked the time, saw that it was only around 4:40am. I stayed in bed and let my mind wander, hazy, until my husband got up after 6 and started to get ready for the day. This is still a … Continue reading Breezing Through The Day
Looking Ahead
September is actually shaping up to be - enjoyable. Full of activities that will get me out of the house and make me feel like I'm actually doing something with my life. I'll be spending the first week in Tennessee with my dad. Afterwards I'll have several workshops and training sessions at the career center … Continue reading Looking Ahead
Continued Sleep Deprivation
My sleep has only improved a small amount. I have a theory that constant levels of stress and anxiety are interfering, even if the stress and anxiety have been reduced somewhat. I have trouble falling asleep before midnight, and trouble staying asleep past my first and so far only REM cycle per night. I'm fairly … Continue reading Continued Sleep Deprivation
On A Good Day 