When It’s Not Abuse Or Infidelity

I've been thinking about my relationship. How people understand and accept the dissolution of a relationship for reasons of abuse and infidelity - you really don't have to offer much in the way of explanation or detail if either of those reasons are the reason for it ending. If neither of those are the reason, … Continue reading When It’s Not Abuse Or Infidelity →

Goals Delayed Again

I'd mentioned only a couple of posts ago, I think, how it felt like I was putting so much effort into holding ground but end up feeling like I'm never able to advance. I was told that if I hadn't heard from the career center about next week's Excel course by 3pm today to call. … Continue reading Goals Delayed Again →

Garfield Park Conservatory Grounds

I hadn't got around to posting about the latter part of Saturday after spending the afternoon with H going through Pogue's Run. I wanted to stay out as long as possible, but after we got a late lunch, H had to cut the afternoon short due to having the boots he'd worn rubbing his calves … Continue reading Garfield Park Conservatory Grounds →

The Agony of Limbo

I'm only just embarking on the 4th day of this week and already it feels like the longest and roughest week I've had in a while - er, several weeks? A couple of months? I don't know if that's actually the case or not, time feels a little wonky while stuck in Limbo. I'm pretty … Continue reading The Agony of Limbo →

The Effects of Distress

I had to deal with another mental health crisis today. It went from me crying and clutching a wad of snotty tissues on a riverbank to selecting a road to drive on just to drive, to finally having to pull over about an hour away from home and majorly embarrass myself for a 2nd time … Continue reading The Effects of Distress →

Pogue’s Run – Part 2

Part 1 The first thing I noticed about the tunnel was the stench. It's not as bad as it could be, but it definitely smelled like sewage. I should have expected that, but honestly the thought hadn't even crossed my mind. At some point, we were able to cross over into a tunnel running parallel … Continue reading Pogue’s Run – Part 2 →

Pogue’s Run – Part 1

H and I met up in Indy today and visited Pogue's Run, a tunnel system underneath the city which a creek runs through. I learned about it through the website Atlas Obscura. It didn't look like the safest place to explore alone, and when I'd asked H if he'd be willing to go with me, … Continue reading Pogue’s Run – Part 1 →

So Mean

I was at Walmart last night, in the process of reading and comparing packages on batteries when someone said something to me - breaking my concentration (my concentration is intense, even for comparing products). I looked up and saw a young guy, good looking (knew it), trying to offer me a charming smile, and I … Continue reading So Mean →

Pursuing Happiness

I posted this on Facebook today but felt it would be worth posting here, too, as part of my effort to chronicle my ongoing journey from mental illness to mental health. Last year near the end of July I sprained my ankle and had to spend months mostly stuck in bed, playing No Man's Sky … Continue reading Pursuing Happiness →

Silver Lining

The silver lining of repressing and compartmentalizing your emotions since childhood is that sometimes the ability to set aside your emotions is actually a useful tool. I felt a twinge, last night, seeing the signs of emotional distress on my husband's face, but I wasn't going to allow that moment of empathy to become a … Continue reading Silver Lining →