8/24/19

It's only 2pm but it feels like an entire day has passed. We took the kids to see a new therapist, as we were extremely uncomfortable that we could hear another client's session through the walls at the last office. (I was also uncomfortable with the fact that the last therapist had questioned our impending … Continue reading 8/24/19 →

Breezing Through The Day

As has been the pattern, I had trouble staying asleep last night, and when I finally checked the time, saw that it was only around 4:40am. I stayed in bed and let my mind wander, hazy, until my husband got up after 6 and started to get ready for the day. This is still a … Continue reading Breezing Through The Day →

Looking Ahead

September is actually shaping up to be - enjoyable. Full of activities that will get me out of the house and make me feel like I'm actually doing something with my life. I'll be spending the first week in Tennessee with my dad. Afterwards I'll have several workshops and training sessions at the career center … Continue reading Looking Ahead →

Continued Sleep Deprivation

My sleep has only improved a small amount. I have a theory that constant levels of stress and anxiety are interfering, even if the stress and anxiety have been reduced somewhat. I have trouble falling asleep before midnight, and trouble staying asleep past my first and so far only REM cycle per night. I'm fairly … Continue reading Continued Sleep Deprivation →

Sexual Attitudes, Kinsey, Orientation, Gender

Sorry, I mentioned I'd be writing further about online tests and I'm delivering on that promise. So among the personality tests I was playing around with, there were other tests involving attitudes, social norms, gender and sexuality, etc. (Be prepared for some lingo associated with the LGBT community and those on the left. Because I … Continue reading Sexual Attitudes, Kinsey, Orientation, Gender →

Emotion And Logic Are Not Enemies / Opposites

I got lost down a rabbit hole of personality tests thanks to having visited the INTP subreddit (thanks to a mention of said forum by fellow blogger Blunt Japanese Woman). I understand said tests are an imperfect and often unscientific way of categorizing people, but I also find that I can learn things about myself, … Continue reading Emotion And Logic Are Not Enemies / Opposites →

Living With Tension

I may be seeing progress on building emotional boundaries between myself and my husband. In spite of the fact that he's clearly been having a rough time, he did arrange for a visit with a new therapist, and went on Saturday morning, and we have not yet fallen into another lengthy and exhausting conversation in … Continue reading Living With Tension →

Trying To Be A Functional Adult Again

Simply pulling up Starbucks' website to take a look at their application process, and pulling up my resume with an eye to update it, spiked my anxiety higher than it's been since before I moved, leaving me feeling physically ill. I suppose the silver lining is that I'm no longer constipated!* I sat there looking … Continue reading Trying To Be A Functional Adult Again →

Grumpy Ennui

I realized yesterday that I have some mental hangups about leaving the house and doing things, even though I now have a car and free time, still. So this morning I decided I'd head to a reservoir with a swimming beach, but when I pulled up the information it turned out they'd altered their hours … Continue reading Grumpy Ennui →

Clear Water

One of my very favorite things in the world is clear water. Streams, creeks, rivers, springs and lakes in particular. I couldn't tell you why that became such a draw for me, but it's been that way since my early memories of the creek behind the old farmhouse where we lived, and the lake my … Continue reading Clear Water →