I was about to walk out the door to go meet M and have lunch at her place when my husband stopped me and told me he filed for divorce and that it should show up in the system today. So much for mediation. I told him the point of mediation was to do it … Continue reading Reverting To Form
Tag: Relationship
Sensible?
So, I posted before about how my husband tried to get me to agree to a post-nuptial, and when I refused, had sent me a text giving me two ultimatums - find somewhere to sleep other than the walk-in closet, and report on my job hunt progress by 2-1-2020 or he was going to file … Continue reading Sensible?
Learning to Hope
Thursday I went to see my therapist. I knew he wanted to talk about the nightmare that had caused me so many issues over the beginning of the week - I think he also wanted to see if I had reason to believe I was in any real danger from my husband. Any time people … Continue reading Learning to Hope
Nightmare
Literal nightmare. I decided I'd focus yesterday around maintaining my good mood, and succeeded. It stayed good or pleasant the whole way through. Every time my brain would try to bring up a topic that was something that would hurt me or make me anxious I gently pushed it away or treated it with calm … Continue reading Nightmare
Emotional Shock, Part 2
Monday was MLK Day. The kids had the day off school. My husband was home as well. I couldn't make phone calls while they were there but I knew my husband had planned another trip for laser tag. Once they'd left the apartment I started calling to price the services of local lawyers. It was … Continue reading Emotional Shock, Part 2
Emotional Shock, Part 1
This is a follow up to Growth and Interesting Times, Part 3. I couldn't do much on Sunday. Having realized that I was still in a better place now than I was 5 years ago I felt calmer, though. The courts were closed on Monday but I would probably be able to call local lawyers … Continue reading Emotional Shock, Part 1
Growth and Interesting Times, Part 3
Content note: suicidal ideation Friday was the start of a frigid winter weekend, and as the stress and trauma of the day had grown, my brain had started whispering to me that freezing to death seemed like a pretty mild way to go. Either you went to sleep or you went crazy, but either way … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 3
Growth and Interesting Times, Part 2
When I'd been discussing my husband's latest salvo with A & H, I'd said I didn't intend to move out of my tiny bedroom. If my husband wanted me out, he'd have to physically remove my stuff. The kids would surely be curious and confused and he'd have to come up with an explanation for … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 2
Growth and Interesting Times, Part 1
I was going to sleep the night of the 15th when I remembered my habit calendar. I'd downloaded it at the beginning of December because I wanted to be able to mark off the days until the 30th. I'd decided to keep it going in January but had fallen behind. As I marked off a … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 1
The Upper Hand
Friday I went to see M (Indy). She's having a tough January - she got laid off after a merger, and she's been dealing with stress from her family. After I arrived she said her husband had contacted her and needed his second pair of work boots, due to having discovered a hole in the … Continue reading The Upper Hand
On A Good Day 