Brief Update

Have not been great about updating. The days when I don't work I'm trapped here in quarantine with my ex and even though he's more or less behaving himself, it's stressful and draining. Just wrapped up my 3rd of 4 shifts this week and the physicality of the job is finally getting to me. Have … Continue reading Brief Update →

Sacrifice, Restoration and Awkward Timing

I entered my marriage with a fantastic metabolism. I could eat anything in any amount and stayed right around 120-125lbs. By my 3rd pregnancy, my metabolism was giving up. After my 4th pregnancy, I'd gone from a size 6 to a size 12 and was around 175lbs. I felt a little guilty for caring about … Continue reading Sacrifice, Restoration and Awkward Timing →

Good News

So, the start of the morning was less-than-stellar when my husband showed up to work from home. Apparently his company is allowing people to voluntarily work from home while they decide if they need to shut down the office due to COVID-19 showing up in our state. While I was still digesting and internally freaking … Continue reading Good News →

Wish Me Luck

Yesterday I had my interview with the store I applied to. It was around 60 outside, and breezy, so we sat on the table outside the store. I hate certain aspects of interviews, in particular things like 'tell us about a time when you did X.' Those aren't the memories I tend to hang on … Continue reading Wish Me Luck →

Until Use And Old Age Accept Them

I looked for the source of my fear and I found it. I determined I'd let the fear go. My brain promptly said "bitch, that anxiety was there for a reason - did you think I was being irrational? I didn't want you thinking about things that make you want to kill yourself." Domestic life … Continue reading Until Use And Old Age Accept Them →

Stupid Human Psyche

So, I had recently made the realization that everything related to searching for employment was causing me significant anxiety, MORE anxiety than getting divorced and currently being trapped living with my ex. Which made no sense. What was I afraid of? What was hanging out in my psyche that was making this so goddamn difficult? … Continue reading Stupid Human Psyche →

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

So, the ugly - I have oral thrush. -.- Something was wrong with my tongue and when I googled it the most likely culprit was oral thrush. Gross. Went to urgent care Friday morning and they confirmed my suspicion and set me up with a 10 day prescription and I hope to god it works, … Continue reading The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly →

The Limits of Crowd-Sourcing

I am now dealing with a divorce while seeking to reenter the work force. This had me pondering which was worse - telling the recruitment agency I'm in the middle of a divorce, or withholding that information until the point I'm in the middle of an assignment and asking for time off so I can … Continue reading The Limits of Crowd-Sourcing →

Growth and Interesting Times, Part 1

I was going to sleep the night of the 15th when I remembered my habit calendar. I'd downloaded it at the beginning of December because I wanted to be able to mark off the days until the 30th. I'd decided to keep it going in January but had fallen behind. As I marked off a … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 1 →

Human, Probably

It was a rough few days. I was definitely not in a good place mentally. Yesterday afternoon I received a response from the director of the electrician's apprenticeship program and he said there was no way to grant an exception for the high school transcripts - it's either that, or a 2 year degree. At … Continue reading Human, Probably →