Schrodinger’s Loneliness

I need to not be alone today but I also need to be alone. I'm constantly on the verge of crying and the only people around are my husband and kids and I don't want them to see anything amiss and ask me about it. Writing doesn't seem to be helping me cope as much … Continue reading Schrodinger’s Loneliness →

Venting

I try not to waste anger on my mom and the choices she made about how she raised me and educated me. Right now, though, it's a little difficult not to feel hurt, sad and angry. I worked up the courage to place a phone call to the Electrical Training Institute to clarify their application … Continue reading Venting →

Adult Education

I have started an adult basic education course to fix my math skills and earn the necessary requirement for applying for the electrician's apprenticeship program. I feel like I'll probably have a lot of catching up to do - my math skills have gotten very rusty in the last 20 years. Provided I'm able to … Continue reading Adult Education →

Progress Report

Yesterday marked 3 months since my husband and I relocated to Indiana and began our last year together. 3 months of the 12 months I have to achieve independence, gone. That was a little frightening, and disheartening. I had to remind myself that I'm not being lazy. Living life requires an intense amount of effort … Continue reading Progress Report →

Comforting

Yesterday evening I gave myself 40 minutes to get to the Excel training course, and nearly panicked when I ran into traffic even worse than what I'd been expecting. Luckily, it turned out to only be that backed up for about 3 intersections, and then thinned considerably, so that I ended up making the trip … Continue reading Comforting →