So, the ugly - I have oral thrush. -.- Something was wrong with my tongue and when I googled it the most likely culprit was oral thrush. Gross. Went to urgent care Friday morning and they confirmed my suspicion and set me up with a 10 day prescription and I hope to god it works, … Continue reading The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly
Tag: anger
Incendiary
Content note: mental health, self-harm impulses, disassociation So far, 2020 feels like I've strapped myself into a roller coaster that I'm not sure has passed safety inspections. It's been a hell of a ride in just this month, I can't imagine what the next 11 are going to look like. After Sunday morning's nightmare, I … Continue reading Incendiary
Flames On The Side Of My Face
So my husband wanted to go over the divorce paperwork. I'd already told him I wouldn't be filling anything out or signing anything, but it seemed important to him and I decided I'd go along with that. We walked over to the library, in silence most of the way except when we walked through a … Continue reading Flames On The Side Of My Face
Venting
I try not to waste anger on my mom and the choices she made about how she raised me and educated me. Right now, though, it's a little difficult not to feel hurt, sad and angry. I worked up the courage to place a phone call to the Electrical Training Institute to clarify their application … Continue reading Venting
Needs and Boundaries
My husband and I have been together for 18 years, married for 16. Over the course of our relationship I experienced stress related to circumstances outside of our control, which was understandable, as well as stress related to major decisions my husband made for us because I believed, at the time, that I was supposed … Continue reading Needs and Boundaries
I’m Gonna Have To Add Barbwire To These Boundaries
Last night I made sure my husband knew any TV watching beyond 10pm had to be moved to the living room. He wrapped up a few minutes after 10 and sent the boys to bed, and I settled down to listen to music and hopefully sleep. He came over and affectionately squeezed my arm and … Continue reading I’m Gonna Have To Add Barbwire To These Boundaries
If Only
I guess I'm grieving today. Grieving the death of dreams and wasted time. Which stage is anger? Because I'm angry. Angry that I was taught my happiness didn't matter. Angry at the stupidity of having my life crushed because old dead guys wanted to keep Patriarchy alive and kicking. Angry that my mom found safety … Continue reading If Only
On A Good Day 