Content note: lengthy, frank discussion of at least one human's sexuality, profanity, lack of euphemisms, unlikely to be erotic or sexy, sorry. Part One Fantasizing turned out to be the best way for me to keep my sex life alive for a while. Fantasize until seriously horny, then seek out my husband for sex. That … Continue reading Sex and the Conservative Christian Girl: part 2
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Sex and the Conservative Christian Girl
Content note: lengthy, frank discussion of at least one human's sexuality Lengthy frank was on purpose and I'm not apologizing. Second content note: said discussion is unlikely to be erotic or sexy, sorry - unless your kink is stories of awkward, ignorant, repressed sexuality, in which case, enjoy! Third content note: profanity, lack of euphemisms … Continue reading Sex and the Conservative Christian Girl
If You’re Christian, You Probably Don’t Want To Be Here
I was raised as an evangelical Christian. I write about that experience occasionally. I don't have nice things to say about it. Right now I'm very bitter about my conservative Christian upbringing and what it did to my life and the precious years I wasted, suffering intensely while trying to shape myself and my life … Continue reading If You’re Christian, You Probably Don’t Want To Be Here
Good To The Bone
I'm a good person, pretty much down to the bone. The religious indoctrination of conservative Christianity had me convinced for a large chunk of my life that I was a terrible person filled with darkness and dark desires, and that only the blood of Jesus could hold me back from depravity and hedonism. A life … Continue reading Good To The Bone
Happiness and the Conservative Christian Girl
For most of my life I've had to pass my happiness and desires through the happiness and desires of someone else, first. I couldn't just make a choice because it would be good for me and make me happy, I had to check first to make sure if what I wanted to do was acceptable … Continue reading Happiness and the Conservative Christian Girl
If Only
I guess I'm grieving today. Grieving the death of dreams and wasted time. Which stage is anger? Because I'm angry. Angry that I was taught my happiness didn't matter. Angry at the stupidity of having my life crushed because old dead guys wanted to keep Patriarchy alive and kicking. Angry that my mom found safety … Continue reading If Only
The Road Goes Ever On And On
The parts of me that went offline because of depression are starting to come back online. That's usually a thing to be pleased about. This time, it's inconvenient. I woke up this morning in a mood. I recognized this mood. I've lived with it since I was a young child. Restlessly wanting more and different … Continue reading The Road Goes Ever On And On
An Unexpected Reminder
Yesterday was one of those days that aren't good or bad but are instead marked by an inability to focus, low energy, and a restless, fidgety feeling underneath it all, as if I wanted to be out doing something, but can't for the life of me figure out what I want to be out doing. … Continue reading An Unexpected Reminder
On A Good Day 