I may be seeing progress on building emotional boundaries between myself and my husband. In spite of the fact that he's clearly been having a rough time, he did arrange for a visit with a new therapist, and went on Saturday morning, and we have not yet fallen into another lengthy and exhausting conversation in … Continue reading Living With Tension
Tag: Relationship
Grumpy Ennui
I realized yesterday that I have some mental hangups about leaving the house and doing things, even though I now have a car and free time, still. So this morning I decided I'd head to a reservoir with a swimming beach, but when I pulled up the information it turned out they'd altered their hours … Continue reading Grumpy Ennui
A Rant About Boredom And Love
I'm just unfocused and bored enough that I can't focus on ways to alleviate the boredom. I'm at the level of existential boredom where I finally joined reddit last night, spent the evening browsing and occasionally commenting on things, and am now already bored with reddit. So now I'm here, hoping writing on my blog … Continue reading A Rant About Boredom And Love
Riding the Waves
I have at least gotten some sleep the last couple of nights. Not as much as I'd like or need, but I'll take what I can get. Yesterday my husband and I got into another heated discussion in the morning. I'd felt slighted, and thought he was still upset with me from Sunday, because he … Continue reading Riding the Waves
Up And Down And All Around
I'm really hating the ups and downs of my life, especially when I'm trying to do my best to be careful and avoid the downs and get that thrown in my face. Another conversation with my husband, in which he first expressed - again - his frustration that we weren't doing something to fix things. … Continue reading Up And Down And All Around
This Problem Can’t Be Fixed (So I Won’t Even Try)
My husband and I had another conversation yesterday, surprisingly this one was more stressful in impact for him than for me. He claimed the reason he made a separate account to transfer funds to was because I'd asked him about having his name removed from our joint account (which was my account originally.) This is … Continue reading This Problem Can’t Be Fixed (So I Won’t Even Try)
Labor
My husband moved most of our funds to his new account. He's generously leaving me 1k to 'do what I want with.' I haven't had the heart to ask him, yet, if he's expecting me to use it to pay for a work wardrobe, gas and whatever other expenses I have this year, or if … Continue reading Labor
I Deserve To Be Able To Save Myself
It's better to put my kids through a divorce than a suicide. I didn't think I'd have to be telling myself this today. My husband wanted the kids to see a therapist. His work offers a certain number of free sessions per person, and he thought we should normalize it for the kids - treat … Continue reading I Deserve To Be Able To Save Myself
Freedom, of a Sort, Grudgingly Granted
I had initially been excited about getting my car, but that was before yet another DTR conversation I had for my husband, in which he revealed how much he struggled with going through with buying me a car. We haven't had two vehicles very often. Sometimes early in our relationship we didn't even have one … Continue reading Freedom, of a Sort, Grudgingly Granted
Dysfunctional Family (But Not Mine This Time)
So, last Wednesday my husband and I had another define-the-relationship discussion. The denial was wearing off, and he was realizing that when I said I saw the most likely outcome of this year being that we'd formally part ways at the end of it, that was what I really meant. That there are flaws in … Continue reading Dysfunctional Family (But Not Mine This Time)
On A Good Day 