So this morning I was out of the house just after 9. Went to the library, started charging my phone, tried to calm my nerves a bit and then called legal aid. The automated message informed me that if my hold time exceeded 20 minutes, I'd be disconnected. At 17 minutes, someone answered. Now I … Continue reading Communication
Tag: Relationship
Relentlessly Negative
Well, I certainly don't want this blog to seem relentlessly negative, thus bearing up part of my little sister's opinion of me, but a lot of negative things are happening that I want to keep a record of, so. Yesterday just after 5pm, my husband came in and asked if I had a couple of … Continue reading Relentlessly Negative
Hell Week, Part 1
I was starting to think the holidays with my family weren't going to be so bad after all, but I came back Sunday feeling like I'd been kicked in the heart, so it seems my pessimism was warranted. There are times when I really wish my intuition and assessment of the facts would be wrong. … Continue reading Hell Week, Part 1
The End of the Month Conversation
Yesterday I woke up with the beginnings of a tension headache and my chest hurting. I was anxious about how the monthly conversation with my husband would go. He wanted to get to it right away after our youngest daughter had left for school. He said he didn't really have anything to talk about, but … Continue reading The End of the Month Conversation
Narcissistic Traits
So one of the writers I've met through this blog, Renata, had mentioned the grey rock method and suggested I should look it up because I might find it useful when communicating with my husband. The entry I found surprised the hell out of me. Not because of the grey rock method, but because it … Continue reading Narcissistic Traits
Paranoia
Today my husband called on his break. He hasn't been doing that lately. Not since I made up my mind divorce was 100% happening and that we could no longer even continue our trying to be friends-with-benefits arrangement. He said he'd been thinking about something we discussed yesterday - how I'd said I couldn't trust … Continue reading Paranoia
Behind On Updating
I really do want to be staying current on what's happening in my life, as I find it useful to be able to look back and see what I recorded, but apparently that's just not something I'm staying on top of right now. I had an issue develop with my shoulder, I believe I mentioned, … Continue reading Behind On Updating
Various and Sundry Items
I have been having a slightly harder time lately. Skirting the edge of depression. I can tell because it's harder for me to focus on things I'd normally be prioritizing, like writing on my blog, reading the blogs I follow, taking pictures while out walking, etc. I'm still more or less okay, though. Keeping my … Continue reading Various and Sundry Items
A Look Back
I've been browsing through my older blog entries today. It's hard to believe it's only been about 6 months. I feel like I've lived several lifetimes in that 6 months. I've confirmed my husband was acting weird and insecure and paranoid before I developed feelings for someone else, and before I was honest with him … Continue reading A Look Back
How Do I Feel?
I still feel pretty positive that my intuition is on the right track and that at some point, my husband stepped out on me and subsequently kept it a secret. I had no idea how to feel about that. My body physically reacted with a ton of anxiety. My guts spilled their guts, so to … Continue reading How Do I Feel?
On A Good Day 