Yesterday I slept poorly and woke up on edge. My ten year old dragged her feet, couldn't find the pair of shoes she wanted to wear, and missed the early bus for Chorus. She had a scream-crying meltdown in the living room and my stress went through the roof. My mood was largely done for … Continue reading Melting Snow and Melting Down
Good News is Bad News
I've now had the surreal experience of having good news delivered in just about the worst way so that instead of being able to celebrate said good news, I was instead as close as I get to a panic attack. Now my body feels like it thinks it had a near-death experience today. Good job … Continue reading Good News is Bad News
Detritus
They never show this kind of thing in cinema. A mediocre, maudlin, pathetic personal drama unfolding. No pretty people, no striking cinematography. Just someone trying to face that their life may be irretrievably falling to ruin, in a bedroom full of clutter, detritus and dust. They're trying to clean to rein in some of the … Continue reading Detritus
Binary
Masculine or feminine. STEM or the arts. Logic or emotions. Science fiction or fantasy. Urban or rural. Art deco or art nouveau. Industrial or whimsical. Night owl or morning person. Straight or gay. Practical or romantic. Prose or poetry. Dominant or submissive. Winter or summer. Flesh or spirit. Humans have an odd way of insisting … Continue reading Binary
Super Powers
I've always enjoyed questions like 'what super power would you want?' I wouldn't want invisibility. There's an X-Files episode that explains why that's a bad idea. Super strength or speed or dexterity sound useful, but not really fun. They sound like the pickup truck of super powers. You're going to be asked to help with … Continue reading Super Powers
Unseen
When I opened up about my experiences with religious indoctrination on Facebook a little while ago, a relative expressed shock anyone could believe the things I believed for so long. I knew they were defensive because they didn't like my criticism of Christianity, and their faith was of a more liberal variety, but it still … Continue reading Unseen
Religious Indoctrination 20/20
I sprained my ankle in July 2018. I am in my late 30s and had never broken a bone or sprained an ankle and now my ankle went out from under me while walking in a park. It was not a mild sprain. It wasn't bad enough to need surgery but it did mean I … Continue reading Religious Indoctrination 20/20
Religious Indoctrination 19/20
I had started out my adult life as a conservative evangelical Christian that voted Republican if I voted at all. I'd registered as an independent but realistically I wouldn't be voting for a liberal. Liberal equaled hedonist sinner that supported killing babies. I was against feminism. I believed it was wrong to be gay, and … Continue reading Religious Indoctrination 19/20
Religious Indoctrination 18/20
The cost of obedience to what I believed was God's will for my life was high. Feeling overwhelmed, tired, stressed, depressed and anxious became my normal right away after getting married and becoming pregnant for the first time. I had never been a huge fan of being touched or having someone in close proximity to … Continue reading Religious Indoctrination 18/20
Religious Indoctrination 17/20
I never explicitly told my husband that I was submitting to him. I thought we were on the same page, that he believed that was the natural order of things for Christians attempting to follow God. I didn't enjoy my duty to submit, I didn't enjoy the life my husband was choosing for us, he … Continue reading Religious Indoctrination 17/20
On A Good Day 