Drafts have been piling up. I keep starting to write things. The ones I complete often end up too personal for me to bring myself to post, which is odd for someone that basically started blogging so I could have a public journal, that has already posted tons of quite personal stuff, and that hates … Continue reading Trapped Inside My Own Skull
Restless
I opened my laptop, powered it up, and saw that the clock said 5:58 AM. I'm feeling a little salty about this. My brain has apparently decided I'm a morning person now, and it didn't give me any conscious say in this decision. It just won't let me keep sleeping, or at least not sleeping … Continue reading Restless
Epiphany
My husband and I signed up for wireless service and bought our first smart phones. The lady at Best Buy was very helpful and pointed us towards a decent but inexpensive starter phone and a limited time deal that gave us a reasonably monthly rate for service, so that the entire process was relatively painless. … Continue reading Epiphany
I Lost Cohesion
I stopped being my own person and became an accessory to his life. I was taught that who I was and what I wanted didn't matter, except in the sense that I was something broken that needed to be fixed, and what I wanted was probably sinful if it didn't have to do with serving … Continue reading I Lost Cohesion
Brains Are Fascinating and Frustrating
The last couple of weeks have been interesting now that my brain seems to be bringing a wide range of emotions back online. It's a little discombobulating. During the two years of my most recent stretch of depression the strongest emotions I experienced were anger and despair and my best days were the days when … Continue reading Brains Are Fascinating and Frustrating
Love And Hate
I hate being a parent. I hate parenting. I don't hate my children. I think it's difficult for a lot of people to reconcile these facts if they have not been in a position to experience it for themselves. My children are neat people. I don't lose sight of that fact. They're witty, weird, intellectually … Continue reading Love And Hate
Writing Since I Can’t Wander
Dammit, I forgot my headphones so I won't be able to listen to music and block out the noise while waiting for my daughters' swim lessons to finish. Fortunately the pain of being subjected to the screeches of random children is offset by the fact that it is an absolutely gorgeous day. It's cool and … Continue reading Writing Since I Can’t Wander
Texted For the First Time
There's no mistake. That's not supposed to be 'sexted for the first time.' Yesterday, June 9th, 2019, at 38 years of age I sent my first text. Feel free to be flabbergasted and make bad jokes about time travel and comas, but please don't poke at the oddity with a stick, I'll poke back. It … Continue reading Texted For the First Time
Cultivating An Air Of Mystery
I am part of a long running group chat in which the three other participants and I have grown so comfortable with each other that we have no problem discussing TMI topics. Last night's discussion involved what is apparently an age old discussion in a broader sense: whether or not we were comfortable using the … Continue reading Cultivating An Air Of Mystery
I Don’t Think I Can Add This Job To My Resume
I've never exactly been in step with society or people in general. I'm off the beaten path, marching to the beat of my own drum - however you want to say it. That's usually not intentional. I'm pretty sure it would have happened with or without the homeschooling and religious brainwashing. I come from a … Continue reading I Don’t Think I Can Add This Job To My Resume
On A Good Day 