Today is apparently one of those days when I'm going to have to deal with feeling caged - caged by expectations, caged by necessity, caged by empathy, caged by apparent gender, caged by loneliness, caged by time, caged by indecision, caged by anxiety. A day when I hear screams of rage and grief in my … Continue reading Pacing My Cage
War of the Soul
I have to apologize to Tolkien for the following story, as I have indulged in allegory. It's not a great story. I don't read it and think this is the best I have done or can do. It's a very, very personal story. It tells what happened to me through the language of fiction and … Continue reading War of the Soul
A Certain Way of Seeing the World
I like to browse used bookstores from time to time. I used to collect anything that looked interesting, but lately I've pulled back from that for mental health reasons. When I have the focus for it, fiction reading is very much an escapist activity for me right now, and I don't want to be surprised … Continue reading A Certain Way of Seeing the World
Gamer Meets Nature
More photos from today's nature preserve walk. First up, a bench dedicated to me, apparently! How nice! I found a loot chest! An unexpected reminder of a truly painful past - I am suddenly confronted by a Guild Wars 2 jumping puzzle. Oh look, I've found a treasure trove of tomes! Will they increase my … Continue reading Gamer Meets Nature
Nature Preserved, Digitally
I wanted to get out of the house and get a walk, so I drove to a small nature preserve not too far from us. I realize I'm late to the party and also not a great photographer but I did have fun taking pictures while there so I'm going to share some. The trees … Continue reading Nature Preserved, Digitally
Riding the Waves
I have at least gotten some sleep the last couple of nights. Not as much as I'd like or need, but I'll take what I can get. Yesterday my husband and I got into another heated discussion in the morning. I'd felt slighted, and thought he was still upset with me from Sunday, because he … Continue reading Riding the Waves
Tree Stump Gravestones
I found out about the existence of tree stump gravestones thanks to one of my favorite websites, Atlas Obscura. Last Thursday evening I was driving by a cemetery in Cicero, Indiana and spotted a tree stump gravestone from the road, so I decided I would visit Cicero again and take some photos. It turned out … Continue reading Tree Stump Gravestones
Snap Judgments
I have a tendency to make some snap judgments based on face and body language, especially when it comes to men - a sort of active threat assessment. Today while out for my early morning walk I passed a ruddy, middle-aged jogger twice my size and he greeted me with a hearty good morning and … Continue reading Snap Judgments
Everything I Want
So many things were said in Sunday's conversation with my husband that some little details had fallen by the wayside, but I remembered one just now: He's convinced I'll get what I want, while he's left with the fallout of my actions. I didn't even have the energy to address that in detail at the … Continue reading Everything I Want
Burgers & Blue Jeans
In a departure from my recent navel-gazing, I'm writing about something I've pondered in the past, which was originally brought to mind years ago by my interest in eating and fashion. (Note I said an interest in eating, not an interest in cooking or baking!) There are foods that are often associated with a particular … Continue reading Burgers & Blue Jeans
On A Good Day 