Need

I needed you to listen. I needed to be treated as your equal. I needed you to have patience and wait for what you wanted until the timing was better. I needed you to take out the trash, not leave it sitting for 3 days until I took it out myself. I needed you to … Continue reading Need →

On The Move

I spent the first 8 years of my life in Nebraska, and the next 25 in Florida, and then 5 in Illinois. This summer we're moving on to a new state - Indiana. It's not an exciting option, by any means, but at least it's not Florida or Texas. Texas was a real possibility there … Continue reading On The Move →

Scrabble

I'm getting addicted to Letter Quest - a solo scrabble game on the PS4. I think it's giving my brain happy chemicals, which is nice because I definitely don't get those as much as I need them. My mood was so positive after playing this morning that I made a plan to have an early … Continue reading Scrabble →

Just Let Me Have My Bad Mood

I told him I understood the pros and cons. One opportunity better for him than the other. That didn't mean I had to be happy about it. Once again we'd be making a major life change based on his best interests and it would include something that would add misery to my life - a … Continue reading Just Let Me Have My Bad Mood →

Melting Snow and Melting Down

Yesterday I slept poorly and woke up on edge. My ten year old dragged her feet, couldn't find the pair of shoes she wanted to wear, and missed the early bus for Chorus. She had a scream-crying meltdown in the living room and my stress went through the roof. My mood was largely done for … Continue reading Melting Snow and Melting Down →

Good News is Bad News

I've now had the surreal experience of having good news delivered in just about the worst way so that instead of being able to celebrate said good news, I was instead as close as I get to a panic attack. Now my body feels like it thinks it had a near-death experience today. Good job … Continue reading Good News is Bad News →

Detritus

They never show this kind of thing in cinema. A mediocre, maudlin, pathetic personal drama unfolding. No pretty people, no striking cinematography. Just someone trying to face that their life may be irretrievably falling to ruin, in a bedroom full of clutter, detritus and dust. They're trying to clean to rein in some of the … Continue reading Detritus →