Continued Sleep Deprivation

My sleep has only improved a small amount. I have a theory that constant levels of stress and anxiety are interfering, even if the stress and anxiety have been reduced somewhat. I have trouble falling asleep before midnight, and trouble staying asleep past my first and so far only REM cycle per night. I'm fairly … Continue reading Continued Sleep Deprivation →

I Need Two Halves Of A Coconut

I'd really like something cheerful to write. Being relentlessly down has the effect of making people want to back away slowly, lest the intensity of your misery rub off on them. I can't blame anyone for that. There have been times when I, too, have wanted to back away slowly because of the intensity of … Continue reading I Need Two Halves Of A Coconut →

Ignoring My Empathy

I woke up this morning and realized that I must have had a proper REM cycle, because I'd been dreaming. The remembered dream made me laugh because of how silly it had been, and I was instantly in a good mood. I went downstairs, and found that my husband was already awake and had started … Continue reading Ignoring My Empathy →

Sleep: A Literal Need

My husband insisted on a third conversation to express his insecurity and impatience. I told him my number one priority is sleep, not hashing out the details and potential longevity of our relationship. Sleep is the necessary foundation for healing, and I was just doing what was necessary to get from here to when we … Continue reading Sleep: A Literal Need →

Restless

I opened my laptop, powered it up, and saw that the clock said 5:58 AM. I'm feeling a little salty about this. My brain has apparently decided I'm a morning person now, and it didn't give me any conscious say in this decision. It just won't let me keep sleeping, or at least not sleeping … Continue reading Restless →