Literal nightmare. I decided I'd focus yesterday around maintaining my good mood, and succeeded. It stayed good or pleasant the whole way through. Every time my brain would try to bring up a topic that was something that would hurt me or make me anxious I gently pushed it away or treated it with calm … Continue reading Nightmare
Pleasant Interlude
Yesterday didn't start off the best. My mom had been messaging the family group chat with pictures of her project building an addition. It reminded me that she has time for building an addition, posting the pictures to the group chat, interacting with my husband's posts on FB but can't be bothered to take the … Continue reading Pleasant Interlude
Emotional Shock, Part 2
Monday was MLK Day. The kids had the day off school. My husband was home as well. I couldn't make phone calls while they were there but I knew my husband had planned another trip for laser tag. Once they'd left the apartment I started calling to price the services of local lawyers. It was … Continue reading Emotional Shock, Part 2
Emotional Shock, Part 1
This is a follow up to Growth and Interesting Times, Part 3. I couldn't do much on Sunday. Having realized that I was still in a better place now than I was 5 years ago I felt calmer, though. The courts were closed on Monday but I would probably be able to call local lawyers … Continue reading Emotional Shock, Part 1
Growth and Interesting Times, Part 3
Content note: suicidal ideation Friday was the start of a frigid winter weekend, and as the stress and trauma of the day had grown, my brain had started whispering to me that freezing to death seemed like a pretty mild way to go. Either you went to sleep or you went crazy, but either way … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 3
Growth and Interesting Times, Part 2
When I'd been discussing my husband's latest salvo with A & H, I'd said I didn't intend to move out of my tiny bedroom. If my husband wanted me out, he'd have to physically remove my stuff. The kids would surely be curious and confused and he'd have to come up with an explanation for … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 2
Growth and Interesting Times, Part 1
I was going to sleep the night of the 15th when I remembered my habit calendar. I'd downloaded it at the beginning of December because I wanted to be able to mark off the days until the 30th. I'd decided to keep it going in January but had fallen behind. As I marked off a … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 1
Intense
Things have been intense and it's getting in the way of me finishing the updates I set out to write. I'm still here, still dealing with life and still moving forward to the best of my ability. As soon as I get the energy and focus to finish an entry, I'll be publishing an update.
The Upper Hand
Friday I went to see M (Indy). She's having a tough January - she got laid off after a merger, and she's been dealing with stress from her family. After I arrived she said her husband had contacted her and needed his second pair of work boots, due to having discovered a hole in the … Continue reading The Upper Hand
Busy
Well this week has not been my usual sort of week by a long shot. Much busier, in fact. The adult basic education classes started again, so I'm back to studying algebra two times a week. I'm in a weird space between easily picking up something new like the Pythagorean Theorem and then having my … Continue reading Busy
On A Good Day 