I'm not in that fortress with you - I never was. I set up my camp by your door and reached my hand through the portcullis to touch yours. You tried to pull me through, because you love me and wanted me next to you, but you wouldn't open the portcullis. I asked you to … Continue reading You and me and your fortress
‘Love Is All You Need’ Is A Lie
Who knows, maybe at some point I would have wanted the marriage, children and a nest thing - if I'd been given time to arrive there instead of being pressured to accept it while it was very much not what I wanted or needed. 'Love is all you need' is a lie, a bald-faced, utter … Continue reading ‘Love Is All You Need’ Is A Lie
Write What You Know
I think this advice was handed to a heroine of L.M. Montgomery's. Anne or Emily, I'm not sure which. As someone that grew up stuffing their brain full of fairy tales, Lewis, McKinley, Wrede, Tolkien, Heinlein, Koontz and a staggering variety of authors and their speculative fiction - as someone that wanted to join the … Continue reading Write What You Know
The Mortal Coil
It would seem I'm feeling talkative today. I was thinking about mental illness and death and how I have always felt lucky that suicidal ideation has never been much of a thing I've struggled with. Whatever else is going on with it, most of the time my brain wants to LIVE. The first time I … Continue reading The Mortal Coil
Curmudgeon
I'm not quite 38 and yet here I am, having one of those 'back in my day' old people moments. I'm scanning through my reader and noting that almost everyone's posts show up accompanied by a picture for a thumbnail and not only was there no such thing as a reader back when I was … Continue reading Curmudgeon
On A Good Day
It's not often that I find a song with lyrics that really resonate with me. Oh, I find a lot of music that I love and that I will listen to over and over because I like the way it makes me feel, but I'm more likely to find a song that makes me think … Continue reading On A Good Day
Need
I needed you to listen. I needed to be treated as your equal. I needed you to have patience and wait for what you wanted until the timing was better. I needed you to take out the trash, not leave it sitting for 3 days until I took it out myself. I needed you to … Continue reading Need
On The Move
I spent the first 8 years of my life in Nebraska, and the next 25 in Florida, and then 5 in Illinois. This summer we're moving on to a new state - Indiana. It's not an exciting option, by any means, but at least it's not Florida or Texas. Texas was a real possibility there … Continue reading On The Move
Scrabble
I'm getting addicted to Letter Quest - a solo scrabble game on the PS4. I think it's giving my brain happy chemicals, which is nice because I definitely don't get those as much as I need them. My mood was so positive after playing this morning that I made a plan to have an early … Continue reading Scrabble
Just Let Me Have My Bad Mood
I told him I understood the pros and cons. One opportunity better for him than the other. That didn't mean I had to be happy about it. Once again we'd be making a major life change based on his best interests and it would include something that would add misery to my life - a … Continue reading Just Let Me Have My Bad Mood
On A Good Day 