I recently posted about having to face some hard truths about my husband and our relationship. I had a post from a year ago, December 2018, pop up in Facebook's feed today. In it, I said my posts about feminism, my posts condemning patriarchy, had nothing to do with my own relationship. I praised my … Continue reading Charitable Interpretations
Panther Creek State Park, Part 3
I went back to Panther Creek State Park the very next day after my first visit, when I found out the weather was supposed to be good, including sunshine. I'd been intending to stick to the lowland trails after the previous day's experience, and parked my car in one of the lower lots so I … Continue reading Panther Creek State Park, Part 3
Fractional Memory
I had to go back to fractions. I mentioned how embarrassing that is to A and H, and commented that since it had been 20+ years since I did math that involved multiplying or dividing mixed number fractions my brain must have thought it was safe to delete those files. I'd spot them in an … Continue reading Fractional Memory
Panther Creek State Park, Part 2
My first day, proceeding along the overlook loop trail and having passed to the other side of the hills and partially descended, I looked up and spotted a cave. 38 year old me thought 'that's cool,' took note of the terrain and thought it would be a good idea to keep walking. 8 year old … Continue reading Panther Creek State Park, Part 2
Panther Creek State Park, Part 1
I'd been planning to post about Panther Creek State Park after returning home from my dad's, but so much happened that pushed it to the back burner. The first day I went it was mostly a grey, cloudy day, but the park's scenery was gorgeous so I didn't mind the lack of sun too much. … Continue reading Panther Creek State Park, Part 1
Irrationality
I had talked to the police the same day I talked to legal aid. Having guns in the house has been making my anxiety worse. I wanted to know if I'd be allowed to legally remove them and store them with a friend or family member. The answer was yes. Everything in the apartment belongs … Continue reading Irrationality
Legal Aid
I'm sure I earned another dollop of ire this morning by leaving the house early without telling my husband where I was going. My appointment wasn't until 9:45 but it was raining and I had to drive into downtown Indy so I wanted to give myself plenty of time. I am really glad I went. … Continue reading Legal Aid
Bitter Truths
I'm having to face some tough realizations. My husband used me, for years. However he justified it to himself, he chose to stay in a relationship where he knew he had inordinate power and got what he wanted from me, and he used me year after year after year. He never did anything meaningful to … Continue reading Bitter Truths
Communication
So this morning I was out of the house just after 9. Went to the library, started charging my phone, tried to calm my nerves a bit and then called legal aid. The automated message informed me that if my hold time exceeded 20 minutes, I'd be disconnected. At 17 minutes, someone answered. Now I … Continue reading Communication
Relentlessly Negative
Well, I certainly don't want this blog to seem relentlessly negative, thus bearing up part of my little sister's opinion of me, but a lot of negative things are happening that I want to keep a record of, so. Yesterday just after 5pm, my husband came in and asked if I had a couple of … Continue reading Relentlessly Negative
On A Good Day 