Growth and Interesting Times, Part 1

I was going to sleep the night of the 15th when I remembered my habit calendar. I'd downloaded it at the beginning of December because I wanted to be able to mark off the days until the 30th. I'd decided to keep it going in January but had fallen behind. As I marked off a … Continue reading Growth and Interesting Times, Part 1 →

Intense

Things have been intense and it's getting in the way of me finishing the updates I set out to write. I'm still here, still dealing with life and still moving forward to the best of my ability. As soon as I get the energy and focus to finish an entry, I'll be publishing an update.

The Upper Hand

Friday I went to see M (Indy). She's having a tough January - she got laid off after a merger, and she's been dealing with stress from her family. After I arrived she said her husband had contacted her and needed his second pair of work boots, due to having discovered a hole in the … Continue reading The Upper Hand →

Busy

Well this week has not been my usual sort of week by a long shot. Much busier, in fact. The adult basic education classes started again, so I'm back to studying algebra two times a week. I'm in a weird space between easily picking up something new like the Pythagorean Theorem and then having my … Continue reading Busy →

A Space Of My Own

I've got a bit of a headache right now, which is clinging to me in spite of having taken a couple of ibuprofen earlier. Worth it. I'd brought up to my husband that I had a solution to our sleeping arrangements. Not a great solution, but a solution. The boys weren't using their walk in … Continue reading A Space Of My Own →

Turning Things Around, Part 3

By the time I was on the road I was in emotional agony but also determined to do something about it. I got on I69, determined to go at least as far as Muncie, IN. I'd brought my laptop along, figuring if I needed to extend my break from home that I could stop at … Continue reading Turning Things Around, Part 3 →

Turning Things Around, Part 2

There were several factors that went into bringing me to a point of crisis, again. First and foremost, sleep deprivation. 3 hours of sleep twice in 3 nights is not a good state of affairs when someone is mentally and emotionally fragile. We'd told the kids about the divorce, and then had to try carrying … Continue reading Turning Things Around, Part 2 →

Turning Things Around, Part 1

Content note: discussion of mental health including suicidal ideation. Yesterday was a crisis day. My post yesterday might have, well I'd say hinted at that, but it probably screamed that. In the evening I pulled up the suicide hotline on a tab on my phone, just in case I needed it. Then I got out … Continue reading Turning Things Around, Part 1 →

Everything Hurts

Physically, I feel like I'm beginning to disintegrate from stress. Emotionally, everything hurts. I've gotten 3 hours of sleep twice in the last three nights. When I close my eyes for a moment I'm not sure if my brain is trying to enter a dream state without actually being asleep, or hallucinate. I've been trying … Continue reading Everything Hurts →

Telling the Kids & Making it Public

We told the kids on the 30th. I found it incredibly difficult to fall asleep and probably got 3 hours. We'd agreed to tell them around 10am, when everyone would be awake and have eaten breakfast. I'd recently installed Dragon Age: Origins, which I'd purchased during a Steam sale, so I finally loaded it up … Continue reading Telling the Kids & Making it Public →