So, I'm still going out today in spite of everything. Meeting up with H at Newfields. A small part of me is panicking and saying 'somebody stop me, what am I an idiot?' because I'm still planning on asking him out after. Another part of me is... really proud of myself for doing something courageous. … Continue reading Courage
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All Real Numbers
My therapist and I were talking about choice and what I want again today. He sounded less sure that I should go ahead and tell H about my feelings. He mentioned the dreaded word 'rebound' which I admit makes me feel very defensive. Talked about how we don't give ourselves time to develop friendships but … Continue reading All Real Numbers
Eliminating Fear
Additional thoughts following posting Resolute: I've got another bead on how this helps me and how I transform the experience from something that feels negative and that induces sickening levels of anxiety. This is about eliminating fear and anxiety. I've been fearing rejection ever since I faced the fact that I had feelings for H. … Continue reading Eliminating Fear
Resolute
I can do this. I can do hard things. I've made a life-long practice of doing hard things and being courageous. I'm having to give myself this pep-talk because I'm currently in something of a triggered state. Here's the background for that. I was thinking about the whole situation with H and how these random … Continue reading Resolute
On A Good Day 