Communication

So this morning I was out of the house just after 9. Went to the library, started charging my phone, tried to calm my nerves a bit and then called legal aid. The automated message informed me that if my hold time exceeded 20 minutes, I'd be disconnected. At 17 minutes, someone answered. Now I … Continue reading Communication →

Update: Interpersonal “Fun”

I went to my first meet-up today. When I got home I found that my husband was in a very bad mood. I'll admit, I'm not innocent on that one. I was so upset with how he'd acted yesterday that I told him where I was going, when, for what, and sent him a selfie … Continue reading Update: Interpersonal “Fun” →

Interpersonal “Fun”

So, Thursday afternoon I was dreading Friday, because Friday was when my husband and I were going to have our end of the month check-in, and I was going to have to bring up finances. I decided I'd try and do something positive that would give me something to look forward to later, as that … Continue reading Interpersonal “Fun” →

Silver Lining

The silver lining of repressing and compartmentalizing your emotions since childhood is that sometimes the ability to set aside your emotions is actually a useful tool. I felt a twinge, last night, seeing the signs of emotional distress on my husband's face, but I wasn't going to allow that moment of empathy to become a … Continue reading Silver Lining →

Potential Progress

We had two visits with therapists today. First to see my husband's therapist, then to see my therapist. They both gently affirmed that the change we're working on is necessary and needs to be continued - in such a way that it didn't even come to an argument or discussion. After our latest fight, we … Continue reading Potential Progress →

Just Push Through the Discomfort

Another fight and in its wake I'm left with a deeper sadness. I discovered he's focused on my methods of coping - that in his mind, they're the real sickness - and that he believes I should just push myself harder, and that he's not even convinced I'm really experiencing the depression and anxiety I … Continue reading Just Push Through the Discomfort →