We're in the home stretch. My husband worked from home Monday and Tuesday. I had contemplated sucking it up and staying home the entire time due to the kids being home on break, then realized I need to focus on keeping my mood stable as much as possible. So I spent Monday afternoon with M, … Continue reading Not a Cheerful Christmas Post
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Hell Week, Part 2
I'd barely had a chance to speak with my oldest sister L and younger sister R, and I had wanted to let them know at least a little bit of what was going on in my life, seeing as how the public announcement of the divorce is only a month away. L had been stuck … Continue reading Hell Week, Part 2
An Epiphany About My Parenting
I was thinking about how my husband had accused me of isolating myself from him and the children a few months back. He wasn't entirely incorrect - I was withdrawing and holding space for myself instead of spending all my available time with them. I'd been withdrawn for a while, though, especially during the two … Continue reading An Epiphany About My Parenting
Parenting: Another Box I Don’t Fit
I worry that the way I speak about parenting makes me sound like a cold, selfish ass. My husband benefits from being a parent. I do not. A need you don't have can't be fulfilled. I knew from a young age that I didn't want children. I just didn't like or enjoy being around them. … Continue reading Parenting: Another Box I Don’t Fit
Beauty and Ashes
Yesterday wasn't exactly a great day. My husband is myopically focused on what he believes our relationship should look like, and how I'm failing to live up to that. I'm myopically focused on not ending up in another long stretch of major depression and anxiety. I hate how mental health is often treated as less … Continue reading Beauty and Ashes
On A Good Day 