I don't get political on this blog very often. Just a warning, I'm on the left and have nothing good to say about the current administration. I'm an LGBT+ person in a female body that grew up on the Christian right. The Christian right and their teachings combined with my parents' early brainwashing techniques conditioned … Continue reading This Is Quite A Timeline
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Choices
Tuesday I met with what would hopefully become my newly retained law firm. I was so nervous by the time I got there that I joked in the group chat with A & H that hopefully they wouldn't be too put out if I collapsed on their floor and became catatonic. The meeting didn't raise … Continue reading Choices
On the Subject of Doubt
Yesterday A, M and I had a conversation about faith and religion. (J's phone has been screwing up and refusing to connect to her wi-fi when she's at home, so she wasn't present for it). All 4 of us have been severely damaged by religious indoctrination. All 4 of us have had at least one … Continue reading On the Subject of Doubt
Christianity As A Cloak For Mental Illness
I was reading the comments on a post about religion and mental health and found some poor Christians talking about being tormented by demons and now I'm over here in a rage just wanting to scream YOU ARE NOT BEING TORMENTED BY DEMONS YOU HAVE A MENTAL ILLNESS AND NEED TREATMENT, NOT JESUS.* Jesus-fucking-christ. Several … Continue reading Christianity As A Cloak For Mental Illness
I Lost Cohesion
I stopped being my own person and became an accessory to his life. I was taught that who I was and what I wanted didn't matter, except in the sense that I was something broken that needed to be fixed, and what I wanted was probably sinful if it didn't have to do with serving … Continue reading I Lost Cohesion
Saved From Faith
It's been 8 months since my brain apparently decided to reboot and defragment the drive. I haven't had a relapse into a major, lasting depression, in spite of major stressors like an upcoming move and relationship woes. I remembered the feeling of taking joy in my existence, and experienced it again, not as an echo … Continue reading Saved From Faith
I Am A Leopard And Those Are My Spots
Rebooting is a double-edged sword (she said, mixing a reference to modern computers with an ancient metaphor about an archaic bladed weapon). On the one hand, my operating system and programs are loading back in. I'm feeling things I hadn't felt in so long that I had forgotten what they felt like in the first … Continue reading I Am A Leopard And Those Are My Spots
If You’re Christian, You Probably Don’t Want To Be Here
I was raised as an evangelical Christian. I write about that experience occasionally. I don't have nice things to say about it. Right now I'm very bitter about my conservative Christian upbringing and what it did to my life and the precious years I wasted, suffering intensely while trying to shape myself and my life … Continue reading If You’re Christian, You Probably Don’t Want To Be Here
Good To The Bone
I'm a good person, pretty much down to the bone. The religious indoctrination of conservative Christianity had me convinced for a large chunk of my life that I was a terrible person filled with darkness and dark desires, and that only the blood of Jesus could hold me back from depravity and hedonism. A life … Continue reading Good To The Bone
Happiness and the Conservative Christian Girl
For most of my life I've had to pass my happiness and desires through the happiness and desires of someone else, first. I couldn't just make a choice because it would be good for me and make me happy, I had to check first to make sure if what I wanted to do was acceptable … Continue reading Happiness and the Conservative Christian Girl
On A Good Day 