Wednesday was okay. Better than Tuesday had been. About an hour more for sleep, still felt kind of anxious and sad when I woke up, but managed to knock that out with my walk. Spent my time in a similar fashion - came home, showered, ate, and then went to two more Goodwills to continue … Continue reading Wednesday and Thursday
Tag: Navel-gazing
Errands, Etc.
Yesterday I finally felt the chill of fall in the air, and it gave me an emotional high. I got quietly hyper. I needed to go to the Sprint store to have my phone's battery checked, but it was going to require a bit of a drive as not all stores handle warranty services. I … Continue reading Errands, Etc.
Comforting
Yesterday evening I gave myself 40 minutes to get to the Excel training course, and nearly panicked when I ran into traffic even worse than what I'd been expecting. Luckily, it turned out to only be that backed up for about 3 intersections, and then thinned considerably, so that I ended up making the trip … Continue reading Comforting
The Agony of Limbo
I'm only just embarking on the 4th day of this week and already it feels like the longest and roughest week I've had in a while - er, several weeks? A couple of months? I don't know if that's actually the case or not, time feels a little wonky while stuck in Limbo. I'm pretty … Continue reading The Agony of Limbo
Emotion And Logic Are Not Enemies / Opposites
I got lost down a rabbit hole of personality tests thanks to having visited the INTP subreddit (thanks to a mention of said forum by fellow blogger Blunt Japanese Woman). I understand said tests are an imperfect and often unscientific way of categorizing people, but I also find that I can learn things about myself, … Continue reading Emotion And Logic Are Not Enemies / Opposites
Grumpy Ennui
I realized yesterday that I have some mental hangups about leaving the house and doing things, even though I now have a car and free time, still. So this morning I decided I'd head to a reservoir with a swimming beach, but when I pulled up the information it turned out they'd altered their hours … Continue reading Grumpy Ennui
Clear Water
One of my very favorite things in the world is clear water. Streams, creeks, rivers, springs and lakes in particular. I couldn't tell you why that became such a draw for me, but it's been that way since my early memories of the creek behind the old farmhouse where we lived, and the lake my … Continue reading Clear Water
Pacing My Cage
Today is apparently one of those days when I'm going to have to deal with feeling caged - caged by expectations, caged by necessity, caged by empathy, caged by apparent gender, caged by loneliness, caged by time, caged by indecision, caged by anxiety. A day when I hear screams of rage and grief in my … Continue reading Pacing My Cage
Everything I Want
So many things were said in Sunday's conversation with my husband that some little details had fallen by the wayside, but I remembered one just now: He's convinced I'll get what I want, while he's left with the fallout of my actions. I didn't even have the energy to address that in detail at the … Continue reading Everything I Want
Dysphoria
The result of applying makeup was weirdly traumatic on a psychological level. Invasion of the body snatchers weirdly traumatic. Dysphoria inducing. It did not look or feel like me. I took a selfie without my glasses on and that made it worse. I posted it to facebook saying it was freaking me out but I … Continue reading Dysphoria
On A Good Day 