(In which I discuss my fear of the not-so-distant future and then tangent into hope for the more distant future.) Oh god this is really happening. My year in which I need to become independent and able to support myself begins tomorrow. For months now I've been telling myself just to focus on keeping depression … Continue reading Run Away, Run Away!
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Bitter Ruminations
Gallows humor is how I cope with and relate to the world. People that can't appreciate or are put off by gallows humor aren't likely to appreciate me. --- There's a movie - Wristcutters: A Love Story - whose opening sequence made me fall in love with the film. I won't spoil it, but it's … Continue reading Bitter Ruminations
The Road To Hell Is Paved With My Good Choices
I was raised to believe in making moral choices. Healthy choices. Safe choices. Good choices. Choices based on reason, not emotion. Don't follow your heart, your heart is stupid and will want things that are bad for you. Here I am, at 38, having done my best to make moral, healthy, safe, good choices based … Continue reading The Road To Hell Is Paved With My Good Choices
Good To The Bone
I'm a good person, pretty much down to the bone. The religious indoctrination of conservative Christianity had me convinced for a large chunk of my life that I was a terrible person filled with darkness and dark desires, and that only the blood of Jesus could hold me back from depravity and hedonism. A life … Continue reading Good To The Bone
My Therapist Is Enabling Me
By which I mean she's encouraging me to honestly assess what I want out of life and to pursue a life that gives me happiness and satisfaction. And my poor brain just doesn't know what to do with someone encouraging me to live my life in a way that makes me happy and so it's … Continue reading My Therapist Is Enabling Me
I don’t know, what would you title a post about a prophylactic?
The condom is finally gone. It first appeared a few months ago, nestled in a gravel filled pothole in the trail that leads from our apartment complex to the park. There's no nearby dumpster or trash can it could have fallen out of. There's also no place to hide for a covert fuck near that … Continue reading I don’t know, what would you title a post about a prophylactic?
A Sprained Ankle, And What Came Of It
I visited family in Tennessee last year and managed, at age 37, to give myself my first serious injury that was not related to childbirth. It was decided that a visit to Fall Creek Falls was in order, so my mom, dad, stepdads, siblings, nieces and nephew congregated at an available pavilion, where we had … Continue reading A Sprained Ankle, And What Came Of It
I am AJ, Mother of Trash Pandas
Last night I had a conversation with my children in which I called them trash pandas and highlighted how they treat our apartment as if they live in a dumpster. I informed them that we're going to be enacting some new standards for cleaning, and pointed out some specific problems that they'd been contributing to: … Continue reading I am AJ, Mother of Trash Pandas
Everything Seems To Be Going Well, And That’s Suspicious
We got extremely lucky. The couple that placed a hold on the apartment we wanted backed out, and we've already applied and been approved. As soon as I knew we were approved, I pulled up google maps to take a look at the surrounding area and discovered the location is even better than I'd realized. … Continue reading Everything Seems To Be Going Well, And That’s Suspicious
Adventures in Moving
We've received the official written confirmation that my husband's transfer has been approved and so yesterday morning, early, we loaded the whole family in the van and drove three hours to what will be our new state so that we could view apartment complexes and find out if we liked any of the ones I'd … Continue reading Adventures in Moving
On A Good Day 