I was thinking tonight how if I still believed in some kind of spiritual existence I'd have to assume that either H and I were meant to be together, OR the universe really has it in for him and wants to give him drama whether he will or no. We "met" online in 2012ish. I'd … Continue reading What Are The Odds?
Tag: friendship
Resolute
I can do this. I can do hard things. I've made a life-long practice of doing hard things and being courageous. I'm having to give myself this pep-talk because I'm currently in something of a triggered state. Here's the background for that. I was thinking about the whole situation with H and how these random … Continue reading Resolute
Pleasant Interlude
Yesterday didn't start off the best. My mom had been messaging the family group chat with pictures of her project building an addition. It reminded me that she has time for building an addition, posting the pictures to the group chat, interacting with my husband's posts on FB but can't be bothered to take the … Continue reading Pleasant Interlude
Emotional Shock, Part 2
Monday was MLK Day. The kids had the day off school. My husband was home as well. I couldn't make phone calls while they were there but I knew my husband had planned another trip for laser tag. Once they'd left the apartment I started calling to price the services of local lawyers. It was … Continue reading Emotional Shock, Part 2
The Upper Hand
Friday I went to see M (Indy). She's having a tough January - she got laid off after a merger, and she's been dealing with stress from her family. After I arrived she said her husband had contacted her and needed his second pair of work boots, due to having discovered a hole in the … Continue reading The Upper Hand
Busy
Well this week has not been my usual sort of week by a long shot. Much busier, in fact. The adult basic education classes started again, so I'm back to studying algebra two times a week. I'm in a weird space between easily picking up something new like the Pythagorean Theorem and then having my … Continue reading Busy
Irrationality
I had talked to the police the same day I talked to legal aid. Having guns in the house has been making my anxiety worse. I wanted to know if I'd be allowed to legally remove them and store them with a friend or family member. The answer was yes. Everything in the apartment belongs … Continue reading Irrationality
Social Anxiety
I said I'd post an update about how I handled feeling rejected by a friend and worrying that it might signal a fraying of the friendship. The friend, in this case, being H - who when given the option to set a time frame for how long we'd hang out in the entire month of … Continue reading Social Anxiety
Interpersonal “Fun”
So, Thursday afternoon I was dreading Friday, because Friday was when my husband and I were going to have our end of the month check-in, and I was going to have to bring up finances. I decided I'd try and do something positive that would give me something to look forward to later, as that … Continue reading Interpersonal “Fun”
Catching Up On The Week
Wednesday evening, I got a message from (Indiana) M asking if I'd mind coming over Thursday morning and helping her do some packing. This was something I'd already offered, but she probably wouldn't have taken me up on it if it hadn't been for the fact that she had the flu for two days and … Continue reading Catching Up On The Week
On A Good Day 