[A couple of months ago I felt confident enough about where I was, mentally and emotionally, to let my group chat with my sister J, A and M know I'd been blogging. M wanted to be able to read it, so I sent her the link. M, if you're reading this, I suggest you stop … Continue reading It’s Fine Until It’s Not
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Powerful
I listened to melancholy, sad songs all morning. Wrote. Processed. Grieved. The weather is nice today, so I prioritized getting out for a walk and drove up to Potter's Bridge sometime after noon. By the time I got there, I realized my mood was significantly improving. I felt powerful. I asked myself a question, dug … Continue reading Powerful
Choices
Tuesday I met with what would hopefully become my newly retained law firm. I was so nervous by the time I got there that I joked in the group chat with A & H that hopefully they wouldn't be too put out if I collapsed on their floor and became catatonic. The meeting didn't raise … Continue reading Choices
Pleasant Interlude
Yesterday didn't start off the best. My mom had been messaging the family group chat with pictures of her project building an addition. It reminded me that she has time for building an addition, posting the pictures to the group chat, interacting with my husband's posts on FB but can't be bothered to take the … Continue reading Pleasant Interlude
A Space Of My Own
I've got a bit of a headache right now, which is clinging to me in spite of having taken a couple of ibuprofen earlier. Worth it. I'd brought up to my husband that I had a solution to our sleeping arrangements. Not a great solution, but a solution. The boys weren't using their walk in … Continue reading A Space Of My Own
Telling the Kids & Making it Public
We told the kids on the 30th. I found it incredibly difficult to fall asleep and probably got 3 hours. We'd agreed to tell them around 10am, when everyone would be awake and have eaten breakfast. I'd recently installed Dragon Age: Origins, which I'd purchased during a Steam sale, so I finally loaded it up … Continue reading Telling the Kids & Making it Public
Affirmation and Success
I didn't sleep well last night, as usual. Around 5:40 I opened google documents on my phone and brought up a recent document titled 'I am worthy.' In it I'd written the following: I am worthy.I am worthy of having my needs met. I am worthy of having my needs met without resentment or stipulation.I … Continue reading Affirmation and Success
Hell Week, Part 2
I'd barely had a chance to speak with my oldest sister L and younger sister R, and I had wanted to let them know at least a little bit of what was going on in my life, seeing as how the public announcement of the divorce is only a month away. L had been stuck … Continue reading Hell Week, Part 2
Hell Week, Part 1
I was starting to think the holidays with my family weren't going to be so bad after all, but I came back Sunday feeling like I'd been kicked in the heart, so it seems my pessimism was warranted. There are times when I really wish my intuition and assessment of the facts would be wrong. … Continue reading Hell Week, Part 1
Tennessee Again
My dad's best friend died last week. He was discovered in his apartment during a well check, having apparently passed from either a sudden heart attack or stroke. My dad and another friend had asked for a wellness check after they'd been unable to reach him for several days. My dad had known G longer … Continue reading Tennessee Again
On A Good Day 