On the Subject of Doubt

Yesterday A, M and I had a conversation about faith and religion. (J's phone has been screwing up and refusing to connect to her wi-fi when she's at home, so she wasn't present for it). All 4 of us have been severely damaged by religious indoctrination. All 4 of us have had at least one … Continue reading On the Subject of Doubt →

Morbid Curiosity Leads to Anger

I distract myself by browsing a lot of blogs. Some I click on out of morbid curiosity, especially if they appear to be written by conservative Christians. Most of the time, I'm grimly amused at the way they think and write, glad I've left that world behind me. Today, though, I stumbled across a blog … Continue reading Morbid Curiosity Leads to Anger →

Christianity As A Cloak For Mental Illness

I was reading the comments on a post about religion and mental health and found some poor Christians talking about being tormented by demons and now I'm over here in a rage just wanting to scream YOU ARE NOT BEING TORMENTED BY DEMONS YOU HAVE A MENTAL ILLNESS AND NEED TREATMENT, NOT JESUS.* Jesus-fucking-christ. Several … Continue reading Christianity As A Cloak For Mental Illness →

Saved From Faith

It's been 8 months since my brain apparently decided to reboot and defragment the drive. I haven't had a relapse into a major, lasting depression, in spite of major stressors like an upcoming move and relationship woes. I remembered the feeling of taking joy in my existence, and experienced it again, not as an echo … Continue reading Saved From Faith →

I Am A Leopard And Those Are My Spots

Rebooting is a double-edged sword (she said, mixing a reference to modern computers with an ancient metaphor about an archaic bladed weapon). On the one hand, my operating system and programs are loading back in. I'm feeling things I hadn't felt in so long that I had forgotten what they felt like in the first … Continue reading I Am A Leopard And Those Are My Spots →

If You’re Christian, You Probably Don’t Want To Be Here

I was raised as an evangelical Christian. I write about that experience occasionally. I don't have nice things to say about it. Right now I'm very bitter about my conservative Christian upbringing and what it did to my life and the precious years I wasted, suffering intensely while trying to shape myself and my life … Continue reading If You’re Christian, You Probably Don’t Want To Be Here →