There are a few people that have interacted with me here on a regular basis this year, and those interactions helped.
There are times when I think about the fact that there are 7.5+ billion people on Earth, and yet at any given moment I cease to exist to anyone but myself. It’s not a pleasant headspace to end up in. While I have friends I can reach out to, I’ve felt worried I was reaching out too much, too often, too emotionally. I blogged in part to give them a break.
I expected blogging to be screaming into the void. It turns out the void is filled with marketing and advertisements but also a few genuine voices that spoke back, added reassurance to my reality, and lessened the loneliness by at least a fraction.
And for that, I’m grateful.
On A Good Day 
I hope everything goes okay with telling your kids.
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Told them yesterday, it was rough but went as well as could be expected, thanks.
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Oh, I missed that, I am sorry. I’m glad that it went as well as it could have, and glad to hear that you got it done and over with.
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You didn’t miss it, I haven’t written it up yet. (Was feeling a little raw yesterday so nothing got written.)
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I always read your posts. What you write here is so emotionally open and real. I hope that 2020 goes better for you.
If you ever want to reach out to someone else then I’m often around.
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Thank you, e.v.!
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Happy new year!
Reading your blog gives me perspective: somewhere in America thereās a woman with a similar personality to mine going through a complete different life with different priorities and issues. I get to live several different lives at once from my phone!š
I hope this doesnāt come across as selfish because itās hard to find other INTP women online, especially ones that are open about their personal lives.
Hopefully 2020 will turn out to be a good year for you and I can send you a card or some stickers or something!
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Doesn’t come across as selfish! Living different lives is what drew me to books as a child.
Once I have my own residence I’ll say so!
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Yass! Iām going to start looking for some cute stationery.
Do you have any preferences? Like favorite animals, colors?
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Not sure you can find stationary with jumping spiders, lol. I like most colors, but blood red is one of my favorites. (I swear I’m not as weird and creepy as these preferences make me sound.)
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ok, spiders and blood red, cool. Goth is kind of a thing over here so I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to find something.
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Hah, that’s awesome! I flirted with the goth aesthetic when it was popular here in the 90s / early aughts, but I don’t really feel like it’s “me” fashion-wise. I love color and variety too much.
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Jumping spiders have been a favorite since I was a small child. I used to freak my mom out by catching them and bringing them to her!
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Wait, are they different from normal spiders? Iām going to google this.
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They are generally small, fuzzy and have big eyes. Check out a video of the peacock jumping spider’s mating dance for one of the very cutest examples!
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Googled it. I can see the cuteness but why are my arms feeling itchy? lol
I found something that I could send through the mail. Now please move out so I can send it. (just joking)
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ā¤ Working on it!
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Also: fuzzy spiders are definitely not for everyone, I’m not sure what went strange in my brain that let me appreciate them instead of getting creeped out like a lot of people, lol.
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Also happy new year! š
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Late to the party but absolutely send these sentiments back to you ā¤
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